Insert: This reminds me of my father on the phone. He'd start off strong then trail off into incomprehensibility:
MUSTA! Ano na nga yung pinag-uusapan natin (unintelligible)..
The truth is much, much simpler, I think. It's that I find my voice funny and so I hate hearing it in the midst of the silence. In the middle of one particular meeting, when it was my turn to present, I laughed out loud (even if there was nothing funny) because I recognized my thought process went like this the moment my mouth opened: "Oh my God sino yung boses lalaki? Oh my God that's me. Patigilin mo! Oh my God hindi pwede kasi ako to."
Soon after that Miray tells me all I had to do to get a girl's voice back was to vocalize in the mornings.